If you read my book, you will see what teaching is all about for me. It is about creating peace, harmony, and a sanctuary of Beauty now, in the moment. Yes, we may be working toward creating a beautiful performance in the future, but who knows if the future will come. Meanwhile, we all need a place to come and renew ourselves after spending the week out in a world that is sometimes harsh and hurried. That’s what I’m about and what my studio is dedicated to...being a pocket of light...now.
To spend two and a half hours the last two Monday nights building such a feeling, creating dances all week to give us some Beauty to work on, making movements that feel great and have the power to create order out of chaos, to bring together a community of light-filled and beautiful women with worry and wear wiped from their faces, and then in the closing circles to have that peace and sisterhood and sense of group unity and accomplishment broken...this will not do.
I spent hours last night clearing the sense of negativity from my psyche and still woke up this morning thinking that I might disband the whole troupe. This work is not about the end product, which lasts 15 minutes on a stage in front of strangers. It is a process that happens in a small room of women looking for a sense of community, sisterhood, and a desire to create something beautiful together. If this is not possible with this group, I’d rather forgo the whole thing.
